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    6/28/2006

    dads fight

    It has been a bit more than a week since my dad was admitted to hospital . They operated on him the next day and he seem quite ok for the time.Three days later he was sent home but after two days at home he was admitted again as he started suffering from lack of breath and feeling dizzy. This time he was sent to neurology and when i went to see him next day he was  a bit confused but he seemed to be in good spirits.On saturday i went to see him at about 3.00 pm and was quite shocked as he was very bad and he had his eyes all swollen and closed and he did not respond when spoken too. My brother and sister came as well and we all thought that the end was near. My brother went home to my mum and told her to come and see him as he was in a bad situation and so she came which was very brave of her when you think she was always the one to make a fuss about everything.She was quite strong on the night and i was surprised .The nurses told us he had a sezure and when i spoke to the doctor he said that the situation was bad but the first 24 hours were crucial and you never knew what would happen next.I went on sunday to see him again and i was very surprised to find him in a very good state again . He seemed to have recovered overnight and he was even responding when talked to.
          Today i went so see him about midday and was there till 3.00 pm and he was still the same as the other day but he seemed a bit quiter.While i was there he was attempting to take out the feeding pipe the doctors had inserted for feeding him directly but otherwise he seemed fine and he was breathing without oxygen mask.The doctor came to see him about 2.00 pm and when i had a word with him he told me don't be too positive because he is suffering from a very severe infection in his lungs and he is not responding to medication .He told me it is all to do with the cancer he had in his bladder and most probably his body is shutting down slowly.So far he doesn't seem to be suffering that much at least . Only when he is moved some times he complains of pain so it seems the painkillers are doing their job.I hope that if he has to go like this he goes without too much pain.It is all in the hands of god now.Hope he does listen to our prayers.
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    6/11/2006

    Life so hard.

    I have been noticing that my dad was not the same person i knew before. These last months he started changing gradually.Most probably i was noticing this as i only see him every two weeks.A couple of times i told mother about it but she said he was a bit ill and that it must be his age.He is 85 now ,a nice age in a way as long as you have good health.He was a hard worker all his life. His job as a farmer is not one of the easiest in the world and it requires a lot of hard work whether it is sunshine or raining and cold  .He used to start at sunrise till sunset most days of the week and quite often even on sundays.There are 5 of us kids in the family so you can imagine how hard it was but i never heard him complain.So you must imagine he was a very strong man.
             It was  a big shock to me when my brother phoned and told me that my dad has been admitted to hospital to be operated on monday next.As i said before i was noticing that there was a change but i never expected to see him in such a bad state when i went to see him last night.I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw him in his bed and he had to be helped everytime he wanted to get out of bed.His face was shrivelled and looking very tired.What a change. How hard can life be eh.He has got cancer the doctor has told us though they havent told him so far.We are trying to keep this news away from him.He doesn't deserve this i think though overall i think he has always enjoyed a healthy life.So it is harder for him having to stay in bed all the time .His spirit seems so subdued .It is very hard for him not beeing able to move from his hospital bed without the help of others.I just blocked in front of such a scene .I just didn't know what to say or do.How very unfair this life can be.
        They are going to operate on him tomorrow in the afternoon.I am writing this tonight with tears in my eyes and fearing that it is too late now.His age works against him as well .Hope god will grant him a few more years on this earth for the family to enjoy.I still have a strong hope that he comes out of this as a fighter as he has done in a few other episodes in life.I know that life must end some time .If it is now i hope that he won't suffer at least.He doesn't deserve it.He is a very good man and i don't say this because he is my dad.I owe him the sound principles of life i have tried to follow in my life. Thanks DAD. KEEP FIGHTING.
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