Mela inkompli ftit fuq ir-religjon bhal ma ghamilt dan l-ahhar.Forsi tahsbu li qieghed insir religjuz izjed mill-papa jien eh.Ghandi dubji serji fuq hekk biss kif ghidt kemm il darba illum nipprova kemm nista li dak li nemmen nipprova nghixu kemm jista jkun.Jew temmen u tghamel dak li temmen jew temmen xejn ghax ma jghamilx sens.

  Nghamel mill-ahjar jien biex immur il-knisja u anke nipprova li nitlob xi haga zghira kuljum u inhossni ahjar ukoll u din nghida bis serjeta kollha. Issa meta immur il-knisja nhar ta hadd, nara li il-maggoranza tan-nies imorru jitqarbnu u nibda inhokk rasi. Nixtieq nistqarr li jien mhux wiehed minnhom ghax ghandi diffikulta serja fuq hekk.Ghaliex ghandi immur inqerr u nitqarben meta min qabel naf li m'inhix nghix totalment ir-religjon kif suppost u naf diga li wara ftit tal-hin jien se nerggha immur nghamel l-istess haga li ghadni kif ghamilt jigifieri l-istess zbalji?. Jew vera tindem jew int ipokrita. Ma nistax nifhem jien kif dawk in-nies kollha imorru jitqarbnu kull nhar ta  hadd u meta jien narahom fir-rejalta tal-hajja dawn ituni impressjoni ohra.Dawn l-istess nies li jiskartaw mix-xoghol kif ikollhom cans jew li iqaxxruk hajj meta tmur tixtri xi haga minghandom. Dawn vera qieghdin jghixu ir-religjon jew farsa shiha, faccata biss ghan-nies ta madwarhom.?Hafna drabi dawn l-istess nies tismaghhom iparlaw ma ta hdejhom tul il-quddiesa kollha u inqas jghatu cans lil qassis jghati il-barka ghax jitilqu jigru il-barra qishom se taqgha il-knisja fuqhom.Forsi jien mela ghandi bzonn immur nerga niehu kors fuq dak li qal Kristu. Xi hadd qieghed jghamel hazin hawn.Jew jien skrupluz hafna jew hemm xi haga li m'inhix nifhem jien.

At times when I am feeling a bit down a lot of thoughts start going round in my mind especially about my r existence in this world and my feelings about the god I believe in. I am a catholic, maybe not a very good one at that but I try to follow Christ’s teachings as much as I can more so as I got older you can say. Don’t really know if anyone can really follow it all to the letter in today’s world and a lot of doubts creep up in my head when I observe all that is going on around us.We have always been taught that God is perfect and that he created something which was great and perfect as well. Now we blame humanity for all the things that are going wrong, for all the global warming and climate change and all the wars going on in various parts of the world. How is it that God has allowed us humans to destroy all that was good. Why does he allow people not only to become bad but to cause wide scale suffering and even destroying innocent people’s lives? Why does he allow the famine in many parts of the world and the very bad standard of living of a lot of humans which don’t even have the chance to have what we call a normal life? Why does he allow that we huge sums of money to build more efficient arms and larger and more sophisticated bombs so that we can kill larger numbers of humans and maybe one day we’ll be able to destroy the whole thing. Why does he allow all the hatred present, racial discrimination and greed wherever you look? Money runs the whole show .The more you have the more power you have.A few ugly monsters have all the worlds money while ninety nine percent of us have to share the rest.

Why does he allow the more powerful countries to go to war with other countries and steal their belongings beating and killing those who stand up to them.

People down at the bottom of the social ladder are treated with disdain and we never give them a chance to lift themselves off the floor. Racism is rife even here in our tiny island. We create hell about them but only the ones that are coloured .Nobody mentions the ones coming in from the eastern European countries as they are white. Happens that we organise charity campaigns all over the island with a lot of people showing off how generous they are with the ones who are suffering but then when they meet these same people in their own street they don’t even look or even say hello.

IF ALL WAS SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD ,WHAT WENT WRONG?????????