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3/28/2006 Maybe tomorrowToday i was watching on tv a discussion about who our worst enemy is. Quite a few people mentioned the neighbours and mother in law. Then someone mentioned that sometimes we are our worst enemies.It is the Dr. Jekyle and Mr Hyde syndrome and this got me thinkiing. Are we all like this? From my experience i think there are a lot of people who suffer from this kind of double personality.People that one moment are so nice and welcoming all at once change into the devil himself.They become so awful and they become able to hurt and destroy anyone who they find in front at that moment. I feel i suffer from this kind of thing but in a different way.One side of me wants to do a lot of things and has a lot of plans for the future but the other side says yes i will do tomorrow or never. It is always saying don't rush. You don't have to do this today .Tomorrow there will be enough time to do whatever you like to do.Then tomorrow comes and it is still the same thought . Do it tomorrow.This fight is an ongoing process for me something which i don't really know if i can find a way out of as it seems like it is part of my programmed innerself.I have not done quite a few things in life due to to this. Maybe you say it is insecurity but no as i am quite aware that i am very able to do all kind of jobs and most of the time the most difficult they are the more i enjoy doing them.I have never had more than normal difficulties doing any kind of job.I have been brought up to try and do anything that comes to hand .It is something that comes from deeper down inside me and which is stronger than me.This force takes over and gets priority in my mind over what the other side of me is saying and will do anything to try and stop it from happening.
Thinking of computers you might compare it to Windows which is the system on which all other programs run. You can change all other programs but you can't change the system.Must be Dr.Jekyle taking over.  3/27/2006 PersuaderYesterday i have just finished reading a very good thriller "PERSUADER" By Lee Child. Child is a master of storytelling skills, not least the plot twist, and the opening chapter of this novel spins a doozy, as a high-octane, extremely violent action sequence sees Child hero Jack Reacher rescue a young man, 20-year-old Richard Beck, from an organised attempted kidnapping before the rug is pulled out from under the reader with the chapter's last line. The kidnapping was organised by the feds so that Reacher can infiltrate Becks family.The rest of the novel centers on the Beck family's isolated, heavily guarded estate on the Maine coast where Reacher takes Richard. Richard's father is suspected by Feds of being a major drug dealer and the kidnapper of another Fed, and also seems to have ties to a fiend who killed Reacher's lady 10 years before, someone Reacher thought he'd killed in turn, in a vengeance slaying. Tension runs high, then extremely high, as Reacher, ingratiating himself with the dealer and hired on as a bodyguard, pokes around the estate, looking for the kidnapped Fed and evading and/or disposing of in-house bad guys as they begin to suspect he's not who he seems. But then little in Child's novels is as it at first seems, and numerous further plot twists spark the story line. What makes the novel really zing, though, is Reacher's narration-a unique mix of the brainy and the brutal, of strategic thinking and explosive action, moral rumination and ruthless force, marking him as one of the most memorable heroes in contemporary thrillerdom. Any thriller fan who has yet to read Lee Child should start now.Really enjoyable reading. I hope i can get my hands on another one of lee childs books. DeathThis week I was with some friends and we started talking about growing up and how we don’t seem to realise that so many years have gone by. Normally I don’t give this thing much taught really but then when I hear the young teenagers talking about their everyday life and all the connected adventures, it all comes back in a jolt. It has been so long ago. I realise now I am nearing 50 .Wow!!!!!! Nearly half a century eh. Well at the end of this discussion one of the girls asked me” Aren’t you afraid of death?” Made me think really .In a way I don’t think I have really thought about this a lot. Still, yes I think I am very afraid of it. I know that now I am getting nearer as the years go by and the chances of something happening are growing as the years go by. Inside of us I think we have an inbuilt mechanism of survival and the moment we realise there is a chance that we might die we start panicking. Is it because of the realisation of all that we are leaving behind? Is it because we are worried about the friends and family we are leaving behind. I worry about my children. I know that life for them will go on the same but I feel it will be a lot harder. They won’t have anyone to lean on and that really loves them and who is prepared to go all the way to see them succeed in life and get a better life than I had .Mine wasn’t the end of the world but I could have had a better life especially money wise and a better education when I was younger .. My parents are still both alive and well and I consider this as one of the best things anyone can have in this world. I have been very lucky in this so I hope I will be around for my kids for some years to come even considering they are still young. I started very late. Am I being too egoistic here? So yes when I think about all this I am very afraid to die. I don’t think it is the act of dying in itself as long as I don’t die of some disease which drags on and on for years. I am not very good for this and don’t know what I would do in a situation like this. I have seen people who were bedridden for years before they died an agonising death.This really scares my wits out just mentioning it . Most probably in most cases there is no pain in dying but it is still scary. It is the fear of the unknown. One moment you are here one moment you’re gone. 3/1/2006 Angels and demonsYesterday i finished reading "ANGELS AND DEMONS " by Dan Brown. I found the book very interesting though maybe there is too much religion and bombastic theories but overall it was a good thriller. I have already read THE DA VINCI CODE so i had an idea of Dan Browns writing. We have the same Dr Langdon as a harvard professor of iconology doing the investigations.The book puts together some of the old theories and religious beliefs with modern science, some of it futuristic to give us an action packed reading. I found i couldn't get to the end fast enough. I am including here a much better revue which i found on the internet.
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